Significance of elephants to me

So I'm pretty much obsessed with elephants. I have many figurines, folders, and even my bed buddy is an elephant (his name is Elliott). Now you may be wondering why. Well let me explain...

Seven years ago my beautiful mother passed away. She LOVED elephants!! Once she called me while she was out and said" Lindsey, I'm bringing home a pet!" I was so excited thinking she was going to bring home a puppy. When she got home she was empty handed. I didn't get it until I looked down and saw her elephant family tattoo wrapped around her leg. I was shocked and must admit that now looking back it was funny. That was one thing she was good at, making me laugh. I miss her so much! Sometimes it seems like she was never here. It seems like I just dreamed about her and never really interacted with her. I know this isn't true and is actually a horrible thing to think. I just wish she wasn't taken from me so soon. She missed everything, like my 16th birthday, my first car, my first heartbreak(which I definitely needed her for), my proms, my high school graduation, my first day of college and she'll miss even more very important events. Not having her here for those things was hard but I think the hardest of all is just that I can't talk to her whenever I want. Life isn't the same without her. I would love to see her again, to hug her, to talk to her and to tell her that I love her. I would love for her to meet Joe and my friends. I just can't believe it's been so long, it seems as if it was just yesterday that I lost her and at the same time it feels like a life time ago. So this blog is in her memory. If I could say one thing to her I'd say," Mom I miss you more everyday. Sometimes when my life is falling apart I just want to tell you about it.And I want to hear you tell me it'll be ok. But I know that you are so happy with Jesus and I would never want to take that away from you. I love you Mom and save a spot for me!"

Thanks for reading,

Lindsey Rae